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Ah, Now That...

Journal Entry: Fri Feb 22, 2013, 4:57 PM
Skin by TMNT-Raph-fan


that was fun.

Two months and eight days, 64 chapters plus an epilogue, 134 single-spaced typewritten pages, 74478 words and countless hours later, Everlasting Snow has finally come to a close.

And, to tell you the truth, I have no idea where to start.

Let's start just over a couple months ago, with a girl, a laptop, and a movie. One that changed her life. For the better. One that connected with her on such a deep level that no amount of writing or creating could get it out of her system, and never will. One that revived her love of writing, something she hadn't done in years because it never gained any recognition, she never felt it was good enough, and life events just left her feeling so trampled upon, further deterring her from putting the pen to the paper.

And so, never before so inspired and just recently discovering the world of fan fiction, she opened her laptop, brought up Microsoft Word, and began to write, not helping but feeling that a certain winter spirit (that was her true connection to the movie and whom she had fallen head-over-heels for) was sitting with her the entire time, with every letter, every syllable, every word. And so became the first chapter of Everlasting Snow which, as some if not most will recall, did not even have a name at that time.

I actually had two ideas when I first started ES. I was going to publish either this story, told in second-person, or one from Jack's perspective (1st person). ES got written first though. And then something clicked in me. This was the story that needed to be written. I didn't even bother writing the first chapter of the other, instead going on for Chapter 2.

Another note...I was nervous as could be about publishing the first chapter. I almost very nearly didn't. The fear of rejection, not feeling it was good enough, and so on almost prevented me from clicking "Submit."

But, with a sudden gust of cold air despite my indoor state, I knew it must be done.

One thing led to another, and here we are today.

I never in my wildest dreams expected to be where I'm at now. Never thought I'd have nearly as many readers as I do (I was expecting maybe 5 to 10 when I published chapter 1), never thought I'd get over 30000 pageviews, and so on and so forth. But I've said that so many times in the past that you guys must be getting frustrated with me. xD Then again...I can't say it enough. It's because I'm still in so much disbelief myself. I can't bring myself to believe that I wrote something good enough to attract so much attention. I'm satisfied with ES, but it's still hard to wrap my mind around the fact that people actually think it's good and love it so much. I'm sorry, I'm just a really humble person with an even humbler background. I will admit that I have a very good grasp on who I am as a person, and I think that humility defines who I am, and if I were to get big-headed about any of this, it would detract from my writing and my personality as an artist (if I may venture to call myself that).

Hmm, next topic. How I felt while writing this, and the process of writing. Let's start with the latter. I never once pre-planned a chapter. I didn't even know that I wanted to have the reader give Jack his hoodie until they first see Jack and observe his clothes. The idea of Jack forgetting the reader didn't come up until just before the first time the reader encounters Pitch. And those were both key ideas, so you can imagine the other ideas (especially the Leprechaun--for his whole concept, I can't help but feel like I really was inspired by our favorite winter spirit only to realize his plotting just before I sat down to write the chapter revealing who the shop owner was). Ok, ok. So there was a little planning. But it seriously was not until fifteen minutes before I wrote the chapter. I would determine rough ideas of what I would want to have happen, but never anything more specific than that. I never wrote out a rough draft, I just sat down and wrote the words as they came to me. There was rarely any backspacing and editing. However, I did pour everything I had, my heart and soul, into each chapter, treating it with great care as one does a child, hopefully answering questions that I had regarding the movie in my own form.

Oh, that's why Sandy suggests the Leprechaun as a Guardian! Ah, I see, that's how North and the others managed to get back on the sleigh! That's why Jack tells Pitch to leave him alone "for the last time," even though he's really only encountered him a couple times and not once asked to be left alone! And that...THAT is how he managed to get his hoodie!

Things like that.

Which brings me into how I felt as I wrote. I never once wanted to stop writing. The only things preventing me from just writing continuously were this human thing called fatigue, this other thing called time, and these other things called people and life events. I loved every moment. I always smiled after completing a chapter, my heart racing in excitement just before starting one. My emotions were the emotions of the reader. I cried, I felt fear, anger, I laughed, and so on and so forth. But the thing is, all this was happening as I was writing the chapter, not while reading it. All I could do was hope that I could successfully transfer what I was feeling into my writing and thus to the reader.

All I wanted to do was write a story, to maybe contribute to the world of literature in some way or form. To maybe, just maybe, stick my style of writing out there and get a little feedback. To write a story that I would read in hopes that a few others would, too, a story with one foot in realism and the other in fantasy, just like the movie that started it all...

Wow, this journal is getting long. But I'm not done yet, so I'll just keep going...thank you kindly if you stick with me here. :)

And now, it's over. I'm not sure how to feel. On one hand, I'm completely satisfied with how it turned out, feeling that I wouldn't change a single word, wouldn't add or subtract a single chapter. I'm happy that it's over, in a way. No more chapters to write and so on. But, on the other hand, I'm sad. I don't know what to do with my life. This fiction kind of really helped me escape the miseries of my everyday life, helped me connect with Jack and explore my imagination, and now it's over. That connection with Jack will forever remain, I know that. My imagination will always be available. What I will really miss, I think, are the multitude of favorites, of notes and views, of comments...Each one made my day. No joke. Each one helped fill me and my life. I will no doubt grow at least a little sadder as my daily pageviews dwindles down, my notification inbox growing ever smaller.

But, at that point, I will remember the good times with each published chapter, and go back and read the comments, getting all nostalgic and stuff.

"Why don't you just write more?"

It's simple, really. I'm totally satisfied with my work. Plus, as David Tennant once wisely said in an interview, you should go while you'd still be missed. And that is what I'm doing here, now, with the fiction. :)

And now, onto you, my lovely, endeared readers. I cannot thank you enough for all of your kind words. I...just. Yeah. Language and words are not good enough tools to express how deep my thanks is. I find it so hard to believe that other writers and artists could possibly not respond to their comments, but I have seen it. Your comments just mean way too much for me to not respond, and I longed to connect with each and every one of you, just so you get at least a little idea of how much you all truly mean to me. Hopefully, I did. You should have heard me during the day, when I wasn't writing or on dA. I wouldn't talk about my fiction, no. I'd talk to my friends about my readers, about their comments that made me laugh, cry, or blush from flattery. How you guys elevated my spirits. I could be having the worst possible day, but just one comment would make everything better. Even you quiet ones out there who would only favorite or just read, leaving a minimum trace. My deepest, sincerest thanks to all of you for reading and sticking with me to the very end, just like Jack did for you, the reader, in Everlasting Snow. Never forget, guys, that an artist is nothing without an audience, a writer nothing without their readers. For without them, the art would go unseen, unread, lost to the void no matter how good it may be. You all hold that kind of power, that kind of importance and special place. Each of you a small, unique snowflake, combining together to create a beautiful snowfall that results in a blanket of snow wide and thick enough to cover the entire earth in a soft blanket of white. You are to us what the children are to the Guardians. For you are all that we have, all that we are, and all that we will ever be. And please, for the sake of all art, treat your viewers and readers the same. ...And it is because of this and all that you have done for me that I dedicate this fan fiction, this story, "Everlasting Snow," to you.

I hope to see you guys with my future endeavors. I look forward to it with all my heart.

If any of you do any fanart regarding my fiction, please link it back to me. I'd love to see it. :D

I feel like I'm not saying everything I mean to or not expressing things just right, but when I go back and read what I've written, I can't think of anything else to put. Perhaps some things just cannot be put into words.

And so, I end this journal entry with a couple of final notes. Updates, if you will.

Since Everlasting Snow is now over, some of my time has been freed up. Those of you who have been wanting me to help out on your own fictions or such, I will happily do so now. Just send me a note with the link to what you want me to have a look at and what you'd like me to do, and I'll get to it as soon as I can. As far as my own works go, I'm still working on that knitting project but am almost done with it. I am almost done with a drawing, too, one that I owe one of you for not getting chapter 60 (or was it 61?) published when I said I was going to. x3 I made zero progress on the massive drawing I've been working on for ages now. I hope to get that done during summer vacation.

Summer will most likely bring another fan fiction. Though what about, I cannot say. Maybe Jack Frost again, since I'll be really missing him in the hot weather?

I have no idea.

All I know is that I will never stop writing, never again. Rise of the Guardians, Jack Frost, has brought back my passion. And you, my readers, have fueled it so much that it will never be extinguished.

Never stop believing.

I think that'll do it.

Once again, thank you.



Hey, Wind!

Take me home!

~LegendofFullmetal
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  • Mood: Sentimental
  • Listening to: Wind, Take Me Home! by Alexandre Desplat
  • Reading: The Lord of the Rings & 2 others
  • Watching: Doctor Who: Season 3
  • Playing: Rise of the Guardians: The Game
  • Eating: Pizza
  • Drinking: Chai tea
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Luna-Mini-Milka Featured By Owner May 14, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm particularly happy that you published the first chapter (and the others). Your fanfic is wonderful, really. I've read it entirely tonight and I absolutely don't regret staying up until 7:30am :3 (it's a bad habit of mine but I had kinda decided to go to bed at 3 today... haha no going to bed early for me when I find a great fanfic!)

This journal is really sweet and I want to thank you for writing it too :3 I've been addicted to the Rise of the Guardians since the very first time I watched it. I watched it again today, just before reading your fanfic. Being someone who has always loved Winter more than almost everything, I liked a lot how you portrayed the Reader in the fanfic (although I'm not good at ice skating ;w; but I guess I could get better, since I only tried three times and improved my balance since the last time). I love putting my bare hands in the snow. I haven't seen a lot of snow, sometimes where I live we have some during the middle or last part of Winter, but it doesn't happen every year. I miss it every time we don't have snow, like this year for example.

What made me smile was that I felt cold while reading your fanfic. My hands were super cold and wouldn't warm up even when I put them against my cheeks (that were warmer). But not only my hands were cold, almost my whole body was. And I loved it.

Well, I guess that's all I have to say right now, it's a bit too late for me to write more (English is not my native language). Sorry for any mistake in this comment. Thank you again for writing such a beautiful story! I'd totally read any other text you'd write from now on. Bye~:snowflake: :3
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LegendofFullmetal Featured By Owner May 24, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm the same way with snow! We get so little where I live, and it's only up in the distant mountains.

Thank you so very much for all of the compliments. I'm so happy you enjoyed Everlasting Snow as much as you did!! Thank YOU for reading it.
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Luna-Mini-Milka Featured By Owner May 25, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
The weather is getting warmer lately here and I have to admit I totally miss Winter!

You're welcome! :happybounce: I'm glad you wrote this story! :3
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LykkiRykki Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
I saw what you're watching and thought GAH Ten!!! Why did you leave? I cried when he left and I am overrun with those feels after ES. You did awsome with it!
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LegendofFullmetal Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so extremely much, especially for taking the time to read all of it!!

If you're interested, I do have a RotG-Doctor Who crossover fiction that I have posted a few chapters of. :)

Hope to see you with the future!
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LykkiRykki Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
You're welcome! (I'm thinking of re-reading it, and prepared to squeal LEPRACHUAN! for the second time in a row) I've already seen a little bit of the crossover (I love the picture of Jack and the TARDIS)
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LykkiRykki Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
You're welcome! (I'm thinking of re-reading it, and prepared to squeal LEPRACHUAN! for the second time in a row) I've already seen a little bit of the crossover (I love the picture of Jack and the TARDIS)
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HermioneFrost Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I used up 4 days of my life reading ES. And it was beyond worth it! I read every last word of this journal. No need to thank me at all. Thank YOU for putting your heart and soul into what has become one of my favorite stories ever! I can't wait to see what you put out next. You've inspired me to write more Jack Frost fanfiction (I've done a oneshot so far :meow: ) I'm sure that I'll be coming back to reread often. Thank you for bringing your wonderful story to life and sharing it here!
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LegendofFullmetal Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Just after I wrote you a reply thanking you a bunch....hahaha. x3 But it seriously can't be said enough!
And now, wow, to have inspired you to write! I mean...me, and inspiration. ME! A lot of people have told me that, but me being me, I just can't believe it. It's just so...wow.
Once again, thanks :D
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HermioneFrost Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You're absolutely welcome :aww:
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